[Any use of you in this entry is the general you, not a specific person. Because I obviously don’t know who is doing this. And yes, this is my ‘I’m highly annoyed therefore defaulting into snark’ tone.]
Background entry: We need to have a conversation.
I’m finding link backs from pro-anorexia and related forums on my tracker.
At first I thought it was funny.
Because there is one factor that I think people are overlooking, even though I know that I’ve talked about this before:
I am a self-admitted, self defined fat blogger. Congrats, you have figured out the obvious, I’m not sure why you think you’re the only one to have figured that out. I was born heavy, I’ll probably go to my grave heavy, are we on the same page now? I have a mirror. You’re not telling me anything I don’t know already.
But I’m also a fat blogger with EDNOS [eating disorder, not otherwise specified].
What that means, since I refuse to actually join these sites, is that I’m assuming that you -might- potentially be using me as ‘thinspiration’. The irony, it burns. You managed to find a fat blogger who calorie restricts to the point of having a diagnosed disordered eating pattern.
Don’t you look amazing.
Frankly I don’t care if you don’t want to look like me. Because part of my EDNOS expresses as body dysmorphia, I don’t want to look like me most of the time. Beyond that…I really don’t care what you think about me. It took a lot of body therapy to get to that point.
Short answer: don’t throw sand in my own sandbox. I get that the Internet hates fat bodies, I get that the Internet thinks people who look like me are worthless, lazy, weak, disgusting, and a thousand different insults. I’ve been in the body positivity movement a long time-I’ve seen a great deal of it already. I also have a history with Internet snark, so I’m more than slightly familiar with trolling. I’m not necessarily inviting you to try it, but what I’m saying is that I think you’d find that I’m going to fall into the ‘whatever, get a hobby’ end of the spectrum.
If you’re linking to me on a support/recovery board, then this is what you need to do in the future: there is a contact email listed on the side bar. Use it. I don’t want to be drawn into something nasty, and end up triggered myself. I’m all for helping other people heal themselves…but I won’t be the punching bag that you use to do so.